Tag: aphasia

• I won’t quit

  

  I stumble across the neverending desert, sand filling my shoes and rubbing skin from my ankles. Sunlight and heat glare and roast my tired body, and I continue to stumble forward, frustrated and angry. I’m just as aware of my unlikely survival as I am of the maggots wriggling while they eating away the pia mater covering […]

  ellie

  December 11, 2017

  Random Posts, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story, Writing

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• Journal entry #1

  I wake rather late, but cheerful nonetheless. I don’t feel entirely cheerful; it’s a chilly, rainy morning and I know that I might get low if I don’t urge myself not to. I wobble into the kitchen. Make tea. Start the monotonous routine I’ve come to know since the “lows” made their appearance known a […]

  ellie

  December 7, 2017

  Ramblings, The Fourth Year, Uncategorized, Updates

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• :)

  Vertigo is kicking my butt today. I’m unable to turn my head and less I do it slowly, lest I want the sudden, overwhelming dizziness to attack. It doesn’t help that I’ve been instructed by one of my doctors to reduce a medication that has a side effect of vertigo, blurred vision and nausea during […]

  ellie

  December 6, 2017

  ataxia, Ramblings, Random Posts, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story, Uncategorized

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• Updatiness!

  It’s been awhile. Again. So here’s an update! I’m no longer working toward completing degrees in linguistic cryptanalysis. I’ve turned my attention to neuroanatomical artistry, general watercolor, and enjoying having a reason to attend Grand rounds  at McGovern.  The Ataxia community has seen multiple deaths this year. Considering how rare Ataxia is, many of us […]

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  September 22, 2017

  ataxia, Ramblings, Random Posts, The Stroke Story, The Third Year, Updates

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• A random little thing

  Okay, so, this was originally a comment response to a post on the Young Stroke Survivors Facebook group. But it turned into a really long comment so I decided to turn it into a blog post. Yay. °°° Note that there are many factors in play when it comes to physical and non-physical recovery, such […]

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  September 18, 2017

  Ramblings, Random Posts, The Stroke Story, The Third Year, Updates, Writing

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• The Quitter

  Just have one more try. It’s dead easy to die, It’s the living on that’s hard. “The Quitter” by Robert Williams Service

  ellie

  May 10, 2017

  Poetry, Random Posts, The Third Year

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• Better Than New 

  After my last post, my friend, Elizabeth, wrote this to me: ‘Ellie if you are feeling broken, please remember the Japanese process of Kintsugi. Pottery that is broken is repaired with gold. It highlights that the mended repair is beautiful. It emphasizes  beauty in the imperfect. Perfection  is overrated. Your brain is wonderful just the […]

  ellie

  March 31, 2017

  The Third Year, Tips

  ABI, acquired brain injury, anomia, aphasia, ataxia, awake brain surgery, bradycardia, bradycardic, brain injury, brain stem tremor, brain surgery, Brainstem, brainstem stroke, brainstem tremor, cardiac arrest, cardiomyopathy, cardiovascular event, cerebellar ataxia, cerebellar ataxia brain stem, cerebellar stroke, Cerebellum, cerebral palsy, DBS, deep brain stimulation, depression, disability, FA, Friedreich’s Ataxia, handicap, hemiparesis, hemiplegia, hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, implantable cardioverter defibrillator, Intention tremor, ischaemic stroke, ischemic stroke, kinetic tremor, left hemisphere ischemia, LGBTQ, miscarriage, MRI, operation, pneumonia, pregnancy, rape, Recovery, seizure, seizures, sexual abuse, Spinocerebellar Ataxia, stroke, stroke recovery, surgery, TBI, The Stroke Story, trauma, Tremor, tremor disorder, visual field cut, young adult stroke, Young stroke, young stroke survivor, YSS

• Remembering Grace, again 

  8 years, 1 day, 8 hours ago (February 13, 2009, 01:something AM) I’m days from my 20th birthday and I have something that needs to be said before I lose the nerve to say it again. The way he forced me, then acted like he gave a damn when he found out about my baby […]

  ellie

  February 15, 2017

  Memories, The Stroke Story, The Third Year, Updates

  ABI, acquired brain injury, aphasia, ataxia, brain injury, Brainstem, brainstem stroke, brainstem tremor, cerebellar ataxia, cerebellar ataxia brain stem, cerebellar stroke, Cerebellum, D&C, depression, disability, hemiparesis, Intention tremor, ischaemic stroke, ischemic stroke, kinetic tremor, left hemisphere ischemia, miscarriage, operation, pregnancy, rape, Recovery, sexual abuse, stroke, stroke recovery, The Stroke Story, trauma, Tremor, tremor disorder, young adult stroke, Young stroke, young stroke survivor, YSS

• When hope is not enough

  Action and reaction, cause and effect, dendritic output and neuronal necrosis – what, and to what effect? My body doesn’t obey, though it wants to. It has to want to. I need it to want to.  It doesn’t obey but that doesn’t matter anyway. Because I wasn’t born with it and didn’t inherit it, so […]

  ellie

  January 19, 2017

  Ramblings, Random Posts, The Third Year

  ABI, acquired brain injury, anomia, aphasia, ataxia, bradycardia, brain injury, brain stem tremor, Brainstem, brainstem stroke, brainstem tremor, cerebellar ataxia, cerebellar ataxia brain stem, cerebellar stroke, Cerebellum, depression, hemiparesis, Intention tremor, ischaemic stroke, ischemic stroke, kinetic tremor, left hemisphere ischemia, Recovery, stroke, stroke recovery, The Stroke Story, Tremor, tremor disorder, young adult stroke, Young stroke, young stroke survivor, YSS

• Well, that was sort of an earthquake…

  

  It was a little before 11 in the morning and I’d already up hours. I flopped down onto the couch after my final set of squats. Pulling out my phone, I scrolled through my Facebook feed for a few minutes after finishing my morning workout. Time to catch a breather before eating my second meal […]

  ellie

  September 14, 2016

  Ramblings, Random Posts, The Second Year, The Stroke Story, Updates

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