Tag: brainstem tremor

• New batteries make my brain go ’round

  I squealed after setting my cell phone on the kitchen counter and excitedly bounced on my toes – while holding onto the counter, of course – for a moment, then turned to place my medicine bottles back in the cupboard above my head. It must seen strange, my looking forward to another surgery. Let me […]

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  January 26, 2018

  ataxia, Ramblings, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story, Uncategorized, Updates

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• I was able to play what???

  

  Browsing YouTube earlier, as people do the day after Christmas (I guess?), I stumbled across the very last piece I learned to play as a performance major. I don’t know how I can remember it, but I do. The sheet music is tucked away in the vocal sheetmusic book I’d taken to Carnegie Hall ten years ago. I […]

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  December 26, 2017

  Memories, Random Posts, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story

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• ‘Lucky #13’

  

  So, I just checked my email. Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read this! Thanks, Alex, for writing about your stroke; it was the first book I had read after mine. Feedspot Top 25

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  December 15, 2017

  Random Posts, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story, Updates

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• Journal entry #3

  I’ve left the apartment three times in the last week and a half, maybe. Once to Jamie and Tim’s house to create characters for a new campaign *pushes glasses up nose*, and the other two times were probably something small; I don’t remember exactly what. My world currently consists of what’s contained inside of this 900 […]

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  December 13, 2017

  Ramblings, Random Posts, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story

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• I won’t quit

  

  I stumble across the neverending desert, sand filling my shoes and rubbing skin from my ankles. Sunlight and heat glare and roast my tired body, and I continue to stumble forward, frustrated and angry. I’m just as aware of my unlikely survival as I am of the maggots wriggling while they eating away the pia mater covering […]

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  December 11, 2017

  Random Posts, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story, Writing

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• Journal entry #1

  I wake rather late, but cheerful nonetheless. I don’t feel entirely cheerful; it’s a chilly, rainy morning and I know that I might get low if I don’t urge myself not to. I wobble into the kitchen. Make tea. Start the monotonous routine I’ve come to know since the “lows” made their appearance known a […]

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  December 7, 2017

  Ramblings, The Fourth Year, Uncategorized, Updates

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• :)

  Vertigo is kicking my butt today. I’m unable to turn my head and less I do it slowly, lest I want the sudden, overwhelming dizziness to attack. It doesn’t help that I’ve been instructed by one of my doctors to reduce a medication that has a side effect of vertigo, blurred vision and nausea during […]

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  December 6, 2017

  ataxia, Ramblings, Random Posts, The Fourth Year, The Stroke Story, Uncategorized

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• -364 days

  

  1 year ago – Monday, May 16 2016 I waited, excited and nervous. Tomorrow. A burr hole will expose the surface of my brain for the very first time… tomorrow. Less than 24 hours. I don’t remember what I did that morning, or the days leading up to it. I know that I watched videos […]

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  May 16, 2017

  ataxia, Memories, Photos, The Stroke Story, The Third Year, Updates, Videos

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• The Quitter

  Just have one more try. It’s dead easy to die, It’s the living on that’s hard. “The Quitter” by Robert Williams Service

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  May 10, 2017

  Poetry, Random Posts, The Third Year

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• Wheels

  I wake sometime between 5 and 6, as usual. Get up, tell Alexa to turn on the bedroom lights. Pad into the washroom. I’m extra wobbly in the morning so I have Alexa turn on the kitchen lights while I grasp the counter and carefully step my way to the corner where my morning dose of Sertraline (the generic of Zoloft, for […]

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  April 20, 2017

  ataxia, The Stroke Story, The Third Year, Updates

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