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Posted on January 27, 2017 1 Comment
I have days when things get bad. When too much sensory input collides with my still-healing and forever-damaged brain. I hate these – those – days. I don’t hate it during them, though; I don’t anything them because I don’t feel anything about anything on those days; it’s peaceful, quiet, to feel nothing other than […]
When hope is not enough
Posted on January 19, 2017 1 Comment
Action and reaction, cause and effect, dendritic output and neuronal necrosis – what, and to what effect? My body doesn’t obey, though it wants to. It has to want to. I need it to want to. It doesn’t obey but that doesn’t matter anyway. Because I wasn’t born with it and didn’t inherit it, so […]
Well, that was sort of an earthquake…
Posted on September 14, 2016 Leave a Comment
It was a little before 11 in the morning and I’d already up hours. I flopped down onto the couch after my final set of squats. Pulling out my phone, I scrolled through my Facebook feed for a few minutes after finishing my morning workout. Time to catch a breather before eating my second meal […]
Seizures suck.
Posted on September 12, 2016 1 Comment
A very quick recap of yesterday: I began having seizures just before 11am CT yesterday. I don’t remember much and was pretty confused for a while. Anyway, I’m home now and am getting scheduled for tests this week. Jeffrey’s DBS surgery is early tomorrow morning; I’m hoping that I can still go to that. The […]
Vertigo cont. plus an AFO!
Posted on August 5, 2016 Leave a Comment
“May I have your date of birth and is the member ID number on the back of your insurance card?” I wanted to cry. My prescription was going to be filled and, soon, the world would stop spinning and I’d be able to close my eyes without feeling this feeling. Vertigo sucks. I read my […]
Is this really worth it? Yeah. It is.
Posted on July 25, 2016 1 Comment
Real friends – people are worth it. ‘People are precious, and sometimes we forget that. …they need friends, they need love. …love everybody, even the little and dumb and fat and ugly and weird, and, well, if we all lived like that, then maybe terrible things like we’ve just seen wouldn’t happen… and I guess that’s it.’
What will things be like for you in a year?
Posted on June 28, 2016 1 Comment
Well, I don’t know. I’ve been asked a few times since having DBS surgery and I don’t know is the simplest answer that I could come up with. I definitely hope that I’ll be where the gentleman in the below video is, but there’s no way for me or anyone else to predict that. The […]
Prism Glasses
Posted on June 27, 2016 Leave a Comment
I can’t even begin to describe what this is like. Sure, I can describe what this looks like. But I can’t describe the feelings that go with it. This is freaking amazing. I haven’t seen so much at once in so long. It’s not perfect, but I can see. I can’t believe I’ve missed so […]
